" I just want to be wonderful "

Move over Sandra Lee...

2007-05-08T00:56:00.000-04:00

'cause Tany's coming!! :p

Yesterday was my Bday.. ugh I can't believe I'm 27 yrs. old!! :(

Anyway... I bought a plain cake at the supermarket and bought some chocolate & vanilla Betty Crocker frosting and decorated it. It was fun & way cheaper than an actual Bday cake!! ;)

Sandra Lee would be proud!! (In case you have no idea who Sandra Lee is, she's has her own show on Food Network called Semi-Homemade and she uses store bought ingredients and make these really cool & easy dishes.)

So wanna see the piece de resistance?!!

Here it is!!

I couldn't fit the word Happy in there so that's why it only says Bday Tany, hehehehe! :p

Not bad for novice, huh? ;)

P.S. A more real post/update coming soon, i promise!

Official hiatus

2007-01-11T04:46:00.000-04:00

Just posting to let you know that i'm officially putting this blog on an indefinite hiatus. So i won't be posting for a long long while.

Anyway, that's all... until next time, bye!

Huge Mistake!

2006-12-23T01:28:00.000-04:00

Yep! I commited a huge mistake! This past Sunday my cousin Jeannette & her daughter came to visit because they were in PR, but they were leaving on Thursday. And i was stupid enough to give her daughter my MySpace screenname!! I completely forgot that i had linked my MySpace profile to this blog. I definitely don't want the family finding out about this blog, since i name names & talk about the family a whole lot!! Ugh! I removed the link here, but they still could find this blog if they went to any other of my profiles, etc. Oh, well what's done is done, and i'm certainly not going to stop posting here, and most definitely am not going to move this blog... AGAIN... so my new attitude will be whatever. If they read it, good... if they don't even BETTER.

Anywho... i'll probably won't post for a few days, so i just want to wish you guys a very Merry Xmas!! Have fun everybody!!!

Hugs!

So...

2006-12-02T02:14:00.000-04:00

Is anyone else on blogger having the issue of their blog being marked as a spam-blog? Ugh, that's what's going on with all three of my blogger blogs.

At least their letting me post, even if i have to do the word verification thingie. Seriously... as boring as my blogs are, anyone who just happens to glance at them will realize they're not spam-blogs. So i haven no idea how someone could mistake them for one. Is it because i post pics & news & stuff? Or is it because i don't post that often? Maybe it's because i haven't switched to blogger beta yet. Hmmm... I don't know. I just hope they solve this soon. I've already requested them to review my blogs, hopefully i'll get a response soon.

Anyway, no other news to report. Hope you're all having a nice time getting ready for the holidays.

Hugs!

So-So...

2006-11-15T11:05:00.000-04:00

That's how i'm feeling. So-So. I've been feeling down in the dumps lately, which is why i haven't posted anything here. I guess because i don't want to have a kind of emo blog. So that said, i think i'm going to put this blog on a bit a hiatus. I've been thinking of switching to blogger beta, but still am not sure since reviews are mixed. And i have to find out if my layouts will work in beta. So, now seems as good a time as any to put this blog on the back burner. I'll still post in my other blogs, since they have nothing to do with my personal life, just my hobbies and such, and those are the only things keeping me afloat at the moment.

Ok, so... that's it for now. See 'ya around.

P.S. If anyone's interested you find my other blogs on the right side of this page.

Excitement Galore!!

2006-10-13T03:41:00.000-04:00

Very fun weekend awaits!! Yes! I'm staying at my fave aunt's apartment, uber fun. And i'm going to be taking some classes on how to make fine jewelry on Saturdays, so yay!!

I know, i know... that may be boring to most people, but considering my life mainly consists of taking care of grandma and the internet, i'm thrilled. Pathetic, i know. EVS!! (That's 'whatever' for those of you not in the know, hehehe.)

See 'ya Monday!! :p

Random-mania!!!

2006-09-30T04:07:00.000-04:00

Sorry for the lack of posts, it's just that i really don't have much to post in this blog. R/L has been monotonous & boring lately - more than normal - but i have plenty to post about in all my other blogs. Go figure.

I'll try to post here more often... operative word: TRY.

Huggles!

Good news!!

2006-09-22T01:27:00.000-04:00

My grandmother's back home! Her tests results came back negative, and even though she has to have the tests done again in 2 months, we're happy to have her home.

She does have a small fracture in her spine due to her osteoporosis, so we have to be extra careful with her.

But, I'm happy we have her back with us... so yay!!

On other news... I started reading the novel for Wicked, and I must say it's incredibly addicting, hehehe.

Anyway, later....

Hugs!

Long time, No blog...

2006-09-20T03:32:00.000-04:00

My grandmother's in the hospital. She's been there for a week. We're very worried because she has three ulcers in her stomach, a hernia in the esophagus, and she doesn't want to eat anything. We're waiting on the results of the biopsy.

I hope everything's ok.

I've been postponing this post for the last week. Perhaps because i thought she'd be home in a couple of days, but i think it's been mostly because i post in so many other blogs about my hobbies and the like. and i'm so enthusiastic about it, that i just didn't want anyone thinking i don't care about my grandmother. Which i do, of course. I've taken care of her in one way or another almost my whole life. But I have to occupy myself with my hobbies and my shows, etc. Or else i'll just go insane.

Please think happy thoughts for my grandmother. Wish along with me that she gets better soon, so we can have her back home.

Hugs!

What the what is LADYLIKE?!

2006-09-08T02:05:00.000-04:00

I am incredibly hooked on Rockstar: Supernova!

My favorites are Dilana & Storm. I'm so sad Storm was eliminated this week. :(

She's amazing... i would definitely buy her cd.

Dilana is rockin'. That girl is just awesome.

My other two faves are Magni & Toby.

Even though i love Dilana, i think Toby is going to win. I just have a feeling about it.

There was a contestant on the show from Puerto Rico named Zayra. I couldn't stand her. Incredibly annoying. I was embarassed for her. I was like: "Don't say you're from P.R., please!" Hehehe. She was ignorant and so not talented. I was glad she was eliminated.

Can't till next week! To see my girl Dilana perform. ;)

I'll leave you with some Dilana & Storm pics:

VMAs '06

2006-09-01T15:04:00.000-04:00

This year's VMA's were a special brand of Crap-ola!! LOL!

It was painful to watch. I think Jack Black should stick to movies. 'Cause as host he was just.... Hmmm....

Even the performances were awful. Even my girls Shakira & Beyoncé let me down! (Though Beyoncé's outfit was very cool, i have to give her props for that.)

There were only 2 moments that made the whole debacle worthwhile and they were Christina Aguilera & Panic! at the Disco.

Christina looked fabulous. I'm glad she decided to perform one of her ballads. She was amazing as always.

And Panic! at the Disco did an awesome job! Love them!

The rest just sucked big time. Not to mention that a lot of artists that won didn't really deserve to win in my opinion.

Though of course i was happy my cutie from the U.K. James Blunt won Best Male Video... that was the other only cool moment of the whole night.

That's all for now... Huggles!

Random Thoughts

2006-08-27T16:47:00.000-04:00

I've always wanted to be a mother (and sometimes i still do). But i think i wasn't born to have kids. I have no maternal instincts what-so-ever. As evidenced by the fact that i'm annoyed by any type of child in my presence. I like babies, but children 2 or 3 and older are out of my league.

Right now my cousin (who i haven't talked to yet, because we had a falling out) has his 2 kids here with him. And their noise is driving me crazy. I have a headache as big as Mars.

Does this make me a bad person?

*sighs* I don't think so. I think it just makes me human.

Well, update later...

Hugs!!

FunkyTown????

2006-08-23T22:44:00.000-04:00

I'm in a rather funky mood. Can't pinpoint what's going on or why. Very weird.

I actually have no idea as to why i'm posting right now.

*sighs*

I'll post a real entry later.

Hugs!

I'm baaaack!!

2006-08-22T00:01:00.000-04:00

I was sick for two whole weeks!! And I still have some cough. :(

Things are just not going as planned. Not everything is peaches & cream around here. And it makes me so sad & mad at the same time. My mother & I have been through so much all our lives, and we just can't get a break. It seems all the good things always happen to other people. I mean, we're not the best people in the world, but they sure are a lot worse. Can't we just have something go our way for once?!

*sigh* Anyway, I have faith something good is coming our way. I just have to believe that or I'll just go insane. Plus every time I feel down about things not going our way I remember all those millions of people that are in much worse situations than us.

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On an extremely less important note... I got the new Christina Aguilera CD. It's amazing! I just love her. I don't care what anybody says about her. She's way more talented than other artists out there. (Don't make me name names, hehehe.)

I'm excited about the new Evanescence CD, can't wait till it comes out.

Ok, so who saw the Craptastic Kevin Federline debut performance? I saw it on youtube.com, and it was simply disastrous. He actually believes he's got talent!! That's what amuses me the most. And you know what irks me? That there's probably gonna be like a million teeny-boppers that are gonna go out and buy his crappy CD. Oh, and don't even get me started on Britney!! Hell, I'm not even gonna go there, simply 'cause I hate when people trash my Christina, so I'm just gonna shut up about Britney before I say something horrible, true but horrible. LOL! :p

That's all for now.

Huggles!

Crap-tastic!

2006-08-06T08:10:00.000-04:00

I feel horrible! I got a cold, and i feel like crap. Don't feel like writing too much.

Huggles!

Yummy Radomness...

2006-07-29T02:52:00.000-04:00

I should state for the record that the next time i get a computer i'm getting a Mac. ;)

Ooh, there's a new site called Cyworld US. It's like a community type place, like LJ, MySpace & the like. It's really cool. I always liked the Korean version of the site, so i'm glad there's finally one in English.

Here's the addy: http://us.cyworld.com/

And here's my minihome: http://us.cyworld.com/tany24

It's really cool, you can make your own little mini-me, buy clothes for it, and decorate your own mini-room.

Go check it out!! :p

So i think i fixed it...

2006-07-28T06:11:00.000-04:00

How? I had to re-install Windows!!!! I'm so tired, and i still have to re-install all my programs! This sucks.

More later...

Hugs!

P.S. As i didn't have enough problems, there seems to be something wrong with the layout... or is it just me? Let me know, please!

So pissed off!!!!!!!

2006-07-27T02:07:00.000-04:00

I am so pissed off right now i could just smash my computer against the ground, but then again my problems are not caused by my computer, but by Microsoft!!!!!

I've always been pro-Microsoft & pro-Windows. Windows is all i've ever known. So i've always defended it til the end.

But right now, i'm just incredibly pissed off.

See, there's this little thing called Windows Genuine Advantage Validation Tool, and the stupid-ass thing is telling me that my Windows Version isn't genuine (which OF COURSE it is!). I go to validate my system at the Microsoft site and what do 'ya know? It tells me that indeed my copy is genuine. Well, whoop-de-doo, i already know THAT!

But there's this message that just keeps on appearing saying that it's not genuine!!!!!! I am at my wit's end!!!!!!!!

I've gone and done the things they recommend i should do over at the Microsoft forums, nothing works, of course.

And i can't even communicate with Microsoft through their service request thingie, because guess what, that wonderful little WGA tool is blocking every log in page, from Gmail, to Yahoo! to guess what... HOTMAIL!!!!!!!!

Hell, i can't even sign in to the Microsoft forum to post a damn message!!!

The only reason i could post something here is because I have Blogger set up to remember me and not have to log on each time, if it weren't for that i'd probably have problem signing into blogger too.

Please if someone reads this and can help me out, PLEASE leave me a comment!!!!

P.S. Sorry for the ranty-ness I'm just this close to having a nervous breakdown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOT! (happy dance)

2006-07-24T02:54:00.000-04:00

My blog was accepted to be listed @ Blogs By Women!! Yay! So very cool.

You can find the Blogs By Women directory here: http://www.blogsbywomen.org/

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On other news... my mom & I were talking and she said the damndest thing... she said she doesn't really know me. I said, 'I know'. She then asked why i didn't talk to her truthfully, and i told her that it was because everytime i did talk to her truthfully she always got pissed if it was something she didn't like, and that i'd rather not go there.

Most who may read this have known me for awhile and already know this, but I should clarify for any new readers i may have now or in the future that i do have a very good relationship with my mother, but that's not to say that it's perfect. Sometimes we're like best friends, and sometime's we can be each other's enemies.

But anyway we're good, we didn't fight or anything, it was just a random comment on her part. I love her, she's all i got so...

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Ooh, Puerto Rico won Miss Universe! Whoot! I missed the pageant, i totally forgot about it, but yay! We won!! Hehehe! :p

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Who's watching The 4400? That show is so damn good! I love it. And i also started watching this show called Fallen on ABC Family, and it's so good!

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On a completely random note I guess i should explain why the comments feature is now moderated. And it's because i received a SPAM comment over at my Asia Love blog, and decided to moderate all comments from now on.

Anyway, that's all for now... Hugs!

Pooped!

2006-07-23T01:29:00.000-04:00

I'm so tired, it's not even funny! Everything hurts!

On Friday mom & I mowed the lawn ourselves for the very first time, and it really took it's toll on us. And to make matters worse we couldn't finish it 'cause there's a part of the trimmer we were using suddenly broke. So I have to go to the store today & see if the part can be replaced. So that we can finally finish the job once and for all.

I think my uncle's coming today, unfortunately he's coming with his middle son, my cousin Carlos, whom I despise (we had a falling out of sorts), but oh well... what can you do?

Ok, so what else?

Ooh, of course... how can forget... I have a new blog (like I didn't have enough already, lol). It's a blog dedicated to my love for dolls. I'm doll collector so that's why decided to create the new blog.

If you like dolls too or just out of curiosity you want to check it out, you can do so here:
http://beautiful-hina.blogspot.com

Hugs!!

Better

2006-07-17T03:43:00.000-04:00

I'm feeling much better today. I apologize for the craziness of the last 2 posts. I have some days like that, where everything just explodes in my face.

But anyway... I saw my uncle again this past Saturday. He looks good. He's walking much much better, he talks normal. He can't move his right hand all that much, though. But he looks good. It's hard to believe it's only been a month & a half since he had the stroke. He's really progressing. It's hard to see him struggle though.

I don't have much to write right now, so i'll just post later in the week.

Hugs!

2006-07-15T02:10:00.000-04:00

Perfect by Alanis Morissette

Sometimes is never quite enough If you're flawless, then you'll win my love Don't forget to win first place Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy Try a little harder You've got to measure up And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up With everything I do for you The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl You've gotta try a little harder That simply wasn't good enough To make us proud
I'll live through you I'll make you what I never was If you're the best, then maybe so am I Compared to him, compared to her I'm doing this for your own damn good You'll make up for what I blew What's the problem...why are you crying
Be a good boy Push a little farther now That wasn't fast enough To make us happy We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

[No need to read this]

2006-07-15T00:25:00.000-04:00

Note: This post is more for me, as a means of letting it all out, so feel free to ignore.

I'm just so tired of everything right now. I'm so tired of nothing good ever happening. It just seems like all the bullshit just keeps piling up. Some people get things so easily in life.

I just wonder what the hell am i supposed to do with my life? What's my purpose? Because had i been meant for something great it would have happened already. Instead i'm stuck here.

What's the point of me being here, of existing? Seriously.

Why can't we get a break? Why do good things only happen to other people?

I just want to leave this fucking place, but i have no means with which to do it.

I feel useless & meaningless.

I'm sorry for all the cryptic words. I just need to write what i'm feeling instead of the actual situation.

Hopefully i'll feel better again soon, and i can post something less stupid and depressing than this.

Huh?

2006-07-05T02:52:00.000-04:00

Things have been a bit crazy around here, hence the lack of updates. I'm feeling sick, maybe i'm coming down with the flu or something... i don't know.

I don't really feel like writing much, so i'll update more later.

Ooh, before i go. I finally saw my uncle on Saturday. More on that later.

Hugs!

Finally!!!

2006-06-24T00:23:00.000-04:00

I finally got my PC fixed! Yay!

The problem was that the power supply stopped working, so we had to pay money we don't really have to fix it, but what are 'ya gonna do? :p

These 2 weeks were torture! But am glad to be back!

Will post more soon!

TTFN!

Just a note...

2006-06-13T13:45:00.000-04:00

to let my friends know that i'm having trouble with my pc. It's been shutting down on it's own, and i don't know how long it'll stay on right now. So if i don't post or email you, just know that i'm having pc problems.

Love you!

deviantART

2006-06-10T04:48:00.000-04:00

I could browse this site for countless hours and never tire from it. Especially the shop part of the site. So many talented people there.

Seriously, had i not stopped to post this, i'd still be browsing the site.

See all the artsy goodness HERE.

And my DA Wishlist - with all the art i wish i could buy - HERE. (You'll see that my taste in art is as eclectic as my taste in music & movies.)

Huggles!

I'm a geek :p

2006-06-09T10:01:00.000-04:00

I talked with my uncle over the phone again, which was good. Mom went to see him on Wednesday, and he thought i was going with her, and was disappointed when he didn't see me. So hopefully i can goo see him on Saturday. His medical insurance won't cover all 21 days in rehad, so he's being released on Saturday. We were planning on bringing him here with us, but his girlfriend said she wanted to take him home, so that's what we're going to do.

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Now onto other news...

Who gets excited when books arrive through the mail? I DO! :p

I joined one of those book clubs, and the introductory offer was 3 free books, and i just couldn't pass up free books. Hehehe. So yesterday my three books arrived, which were The Da Vinci Code, Angels & Demons & another thriller, that i don't really know much about called Mary Mary. I already ordered two other books, and am waiting for them. I ordered Wicked (the basis of the musical) & Memoirs of a Geisha.

Now to the WTF? moment of the day. I was checking out my YesAsia newsletter and saw that there's a chinese edition of Brokeback Mountain that includes a second disc with more special features, photo stills from the movie, even a chinese version of the short story. It even comes in a denim cover!

Now, how come we get the half-assed-thrown-together-in-five-minutes version of the DVD?

You can check it out at YesAsia.com HERE.

Preview:

P.S. Meish I'll be emailing you soon. :)

Uhm...

2006-06-07T04:28:00.000-04:00

I finally got to talk with my uncle on the phone, that made me happy, and i'm sure it made him happy too. He sounded ok, though i know he must be having a hard time with the therapy and everything. I bet he feels alone in that place. It sucks that it's so far away. It if were closer we could go see him almost everyday. He asked when we were going to visit him. That broke my heart. I can't wait to go see him.

On other news, my mom is offically out of a job, since yesterday they officially closed down the hospital she worked in. She's kind of depressed about it, since she worked there for 17 years.

On top of everything else it seems all things decided to break at the same time. We have so many things that need to be fixed, we don't even know where to begin.

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On a more light-hearted note, i finally got my mom to watch Memoirs of Geisha & Brokeback Mountain with me this past weekend. That was difficult task. I spent months telling her to watch those films with me. But to get her to watch movies that aren't comedy or action is almost impossibe. I swear, she must have been a man in another life, hehehe. But she watched and she liked, so yay.

Ok, that's all for now.

Hugs!

Please listen...

2006-06-05T23:26:00.000-04:00

So, had this whole post planned, but i heard this song, and just had to share it.

Will post later, enjoy the song!

[Insert Clever Title here]

2006-06-03T01:22:00.000-04:00

So, I have good news. My uncle is doing better, he has a positive attitude and his medical insurance is going to cover the rehabilitation home he has to go to.

Mom's going to go see him tomorrow. He's already been released from the hospital and is already in the rehab home.

Hmmm...

I really don't know what else to write. I guess I just wanted to post something 'cause I hadn't done so in a few days.

TTFN!

So...

2006-05-31T09:37:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was a fairly good day. I was feeling pretty good, but then suddenly I remembered, you know. Not that I actually forgot, but I just wasn't obsessing about it.

I got really sad when I remembered that my uncle has always called me his baby, 'cause I'm his only niece, since mom doesn't have anymore children, and they're the only two siblings.

And when you're 26, it's kind of annoying to be called a baby, but I suddenly miss it, you know. It's been a week since I last saw him. I saw him about three days before the stroke. And I kind of didn't pay too much attention to him. I feel kind of bad about it now.

Anyway, mom's going to visit him this weekend. I can't go see him 'cause the hospital where he's at is too far away from where we live, and we can't leave grandma alone for a long time, especially if we're going far.

I know anyone who reads this must think I'm crazy since yesterday's post was so happy and this one isn't. But that's exactly how I've felt these past few days. Up & down, up & down.

I have a headache. Maybe I'll go lie down for a while.

Hugs!

This just made my day

2006-05-30T14:22:00.000-04:00

With all the things that have been going on, I'll take a good laugh when I can, so I'm sharing some funny quotes I found.

From Overheard in New York:
Tourist lady: Ahem ... excuse me sir ... em .. Could you tell us how to get to Central Park from here?
Dude: Sure, just take a left on 72nd and walk straight on.
Tourist lady to husband: See, I told you New Yorkers aren't rude if you talk to them nice.
Dude: I'm from Idaho, ma'am, I'm just here for Memorial weekend. --Park Ave

Girl #1: So I was thinking about milk the other day. Milk comes from cows. And what do cows eat?
Girl #2: Other cows?
Girl #1: No, dumbass! They eat grass! So it stands to reason, when you drink milk, you're actually drinking liquified grass.
Girl #2: Ugh, gross! I'm so not drinking milk anymore.
Girl #1: Totally, that's why I drink soy.
--Veniero's, 11th St & 1st Ave

From Overheard in the Office:
Food service worker: What type of soda would you like today?
Female customer: Large.
Food service worker: Yes, mam'm. But what type or flavor did you want?
Female customer: I said large.
Food service worker: Yes, mam'm. Diet Coke? Sprite? Coke? What type?
Female customer: Are you fucking stupid or something? Large. A large soda. How many times do I have to tell you?
San Diego Mall Food CourtSan Diego, California

Employee #1: I just don't understand the point of Martin Luther King Day.
Emoloyee #2: Come on! It's a big day! It celebrates when Martin Luther King freed the slaves. Employee #1: That was Abraham Lincoln.
Employee #2: Oh. Well, it celebrates when Martin Luther King gave the Emancipation Proclamation.
Employee #1: That was also Abraham Lincoln.
Employee #2: Oh. I'm not very good at history.
821 BenvenueRocky Mount, North Carolina

Now that's effin' hilarious. :p

Better

2006-05-29T03:15:00.000-04:00

I'm feeling better today. Not great, not even ok, but better.

I want to thank Meish for her comment. I'm sorry about your uncle. Hope he's getting better everyday. And thank you for not only your comment, but your friendship. You're definitely more than a friend, you're my sister. I didn't mean to make you sad, I'm sorry. You said that you wished you could help me, and guess what babe, you did. Your comment made me smile, and helped a lot. Love you!!

I also wanted to thank 'justmeguy'. We don't know each other, but your comment helped too. So thanks!

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On other news, since I've been trying to keep my mind busy, I've been working on a blog dedicated to my obsession with everything asian and I already finished it. Feel free to check it out. Here's the addy:

http://asialove.blogspot.com/

I'm really happy with how it turned out.

Anyway, that's all for now.

Hugs!

Sick

2006-05-27T23:33:00.000-04:00

I feel sick. My heart hurts and I've had this nauseous feeling all day long.

I'm so saddened by the condition of my uncle. He doesn't deserve this. But I guess nobody really does. He's always been such a proud man. Never wanting help from anybody. And to now have to depend on someone else must be killing him. His whole right side is paralyzed and his speech is distorted. And mom says his temperament is off the charts. He doesn't want us to buy him clothes for his stay at the hospital. And he wouldn't even let mom put a television in his room.

He has to stay 10 days in the hospital and afterwards he needs to go to rehabilitation center for 21 days, that is if his medical insurance covers it. If not then we have to bring him here with us. And take care of him ourselves.

Mom's not in good shape. She's taking this really hard, but then again it's understandable. I can't even begin to imagine what it was like for her to see her big brother in that condition. He's always been the straight and narrow one in the family. He's always been the one to take care of everything. While my mom has always been kind of the black sheep of the family.

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And the whole situation with my uncle is only one of the reasons why I feel so bad. To make matters worse, I feel disillusioned & disappointed with some people and/or situations.

For the first time in my life I feel lonely. I've always been a loner, and I've always liked it, but being lonely is another thing entirely.

I have this awful knot in the pit of my stomach. I feel like screaming. Crying. Anything to get out this pressure I feel inside me.

My mind is racing and the only way to calm it down is to occupy myself with unimportant stuff. Like for example I'm working on another blog, and have been busy with the layout & stuff. This helps to clear my mind. I watched the movie The perfect man with Hillary Duff. Very sweet movie. That also helped.

I thank God for the little things like that because while I feel lonely & helpless, those little things help me get through the tough moments. And if it weren't that way, I think I'd go insane.

That's all for now.

Hugs!

Update

2006-05-26T22:52:00.000-04:00

So my uncle is in the hospital, and he has to be 21 days in recovery. Afterwards we're thinking he'll probably have to move here with us so we can take care of him.

These are difficult times but we'll prevail. We always do.

Mom's gonna go to see him tomorrow. I'm staying home with grandma.

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On a completely unrelated topic...

How do you tell someone that seems to be a friend (though not a close one), that they're really getting on your nerves without hurting their feelings?

Anyway, that's the least of my problems.

Hugs!

Sad news

2006-05-26T08:08:00.000-04:00

First i want to thank Cat for being the first person to comment on my new blog. Love you girlie!
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And now to the sad news.

Last night we received the news that my uncle had a stroke. He's in the hospital right now.

I still can't believe this has happened. Especially to him. I still don't think i've reacted to the news. I just can't believe it.

It's too real. It's too close to home, you know?

We haven't told grandma yet, and we're not gonna tell her for a while because when we do tell her, she's barely going to be able to handle it. He's her baby, you know. And even though me & my mom are the ones that take care of her on a daily basis, she's always been partial to him. So she's not going to take news well. And in her mental condition it would only make her worse. So we're going to wait a while before we tell her. I just hope she doesn't ask about him, like she does sometimes.

Mom barely slept last night, he's her big brother. He's basically the pillar of the family.

All i ask is that he's able to recover soon and and i ask God to think give him his health back.

And just keep going day by day, and keep smiling.

Because that's something my mom has taught me... that no matter what you have to keep smiling & keep going because things will get better. Life always has a way of fixing itself, you know.

Please keep my uncle and our family in your thoughts and prayers. Even if you're not very religious (like me), just send us good vibes, ok?

*sighs* I don't know what else to write.

I guess that's all.

Hugs!

So tired

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I've been working on this blog almost all day. And now i'm pooped!

I'm fairly happy with it. I especially like the header that i made featuring the lovely Marilyn Monroe. It's very purty; if you ask me, hehehe. :p

Ok, well... gotta go make dinner for my grandma now.

Hugs!